Rain Chances Again

 Maybe severe weather to the east, and rain possible again this weekend. Not bad. I had an interesting experience last night on the patio, after dark, and it just confirms to me that I'm living the way I need to live. I'm on the right track. I've made the right decisions. 

I had a number of options years ago and I rejected them. Good move. In fact, I doubt that it would have been possible for me to do anything else, the sense of wrongness was so strong. 

Can't Have Too Many Nice Days

 Cool mornings and warm afternoons with light breezes. Coffee on the patio in the morning and wine in the evening, although I might be sampling some cold beer this evening. I need a change. This will be another good day to do some work out there. At my age time passes very quickly-- the subjective sense of time has become slippery. It will soon be Memorial Day! I wonder whether I might do anything special? I might enjoy beer and hotdogs. I might go to a local park. Then again, I might chill out on my own turf. 

Nice Weather Continues

 This is our severe weather season but so far we haven't had any. That's GOOD. Cool mornings and warm days with light winds are also GOOD. Even so, I feel like retreating into math. I guess it's the human element I find discouraging. News seems to be coming out of the twilight zone or some dystopian sci fi potboiler. 

Decidedly Cool Mornings

 Brisk? Bracing? Pleasantly chilly? And warm but not hot days. I wish the entire summer could be like this. In other areas I must learn to relax and be realistic. I complain about a lot of things but in reality I am in a rather good place, all things considered. Very fortunate in fact. It's absolutely unnecessary in ordinary daily life to be a power lifter and probably unrealistic at my age. I tell myself that from time to time but then I push the limits again. Realistic goals have always been elusive. But if that sort of thing is my only problem...

This summer my jungle is under control, and a lot of it is dominated by Milo. A grain sorghum. Long ago I used a seed mix containing that stuff, and it seems to have spread. I like it. Birds eat the seeds, it grows tall and I can cut paths through it. I like to see it waving in the wind. And it suppresses other unwanted growth. But I have a space reserved for sunflowers and they are dominating much of my space, along with Goosefoot and other things herbal in nature. Birds eat the sunflower seeds, I eat the petals of the sunflowers, and the leaves of the Goosefoot, and small amounts of the herbal plants-- too much and it's toxic. 

Sometimes I Wonder

 And sometimes I wander... Has Lubbock changed over the years? It's bigger. The traffic is worse, the cost of living is not so low as it used to be, housing prices have gone way up, thanks to a rapacious county tax office. If you've got a drop of blood they'll squeeze it out of you. I think, twenty years ago, this was a much better place to live than it is today. It can only get worse, in my view. But here I am and here I'll stay, and I hope developers stay away from my part of town. I like vacant land. I don't like to see residential areas spreading like cancer. I'm NOT an optimist. At 75 I still struggle to maintain my body, such as it is. 235 lb deadlift yesterday, far from the 300 I could do 8 or so years ago. And I have a lot of trouble with the shoulder press. I've managed to damage my shoulders over the years. Rotator cuff problems, impingements, and so on. Work, work, work, and this shoddy piece of protoplasmic garbage just wants to die. I'll make it die screaming: " Please! Not ANOTHER rep!! I can't take it anymore!" 

I seem to be at war with the PU, that damned "physical universe", and my body is part of that rat trap.